The Secret Unfolds

We told two of your Grandparents, your Aunt and Uncle and a family friend that you were on the way this past weekend. The excitement is growing in me, and so is the fear. Not a true fear, so much, but sort of a nervous wonder of what you'll turn my life into. I'm certainly expecting great things – joyous wonders, unmatched pride, unending love and companionship – but I'm also aware that there will be trials. Mere moments will turn into hours, days and millenia when you have some affliction or become tired of me during your own time of change and growth. I know I will be forced to stand behind my own glass, unable to fix you at times, pining away for your well being and consuming myself with your concern and my powerful love. I am also aware that you will try my patience, and I will have to grow too – have to learn tolerance and forgiveness beyond what I've ever yet experienced – so I can be the best and most efficient leader you can have. I suppose that's what scares me the most. The notion that you will truly be my underling – solely my and your mother's responsibility. All I can promise is: You will be very important. Always.

Live at 11

Might be a bit soon to be writing again, don't think I can keep this pace for the next 20 years, but I hope I have you as subject matter for at least that long, so maybe I can. As I said, I learned more about you – much more. You certainly have a lot of developing to do, I saw a picture of you and let's just say you don't have much of a face just yet. I can't imagine how beautiful it will be to me someday. Turns out you came to be around the 11th of November, 2008. That's my birthday. I bet there will be plenty of jokes about that in the years to come, but I'll protect you. I've always needed something to protect. I can't remember much about that day ( I don't remember much in general, I hope we can get that fixed with you ) but that night I went to dinner with your Mom and some frinends, Desi, Paul McCann, and Zack. It was Publican that night, your Mom didn't eat any meat then ( trying to get her to now ) but the food there is great, I hope it's still around when you're ready.

We're to have some tests taken, to be sure you're properly forming. It seems daunting to make such a decision, and the way they package the 'tests' seems a bit commercial, but your Mom and I don't want want you to have some horrible affliction all your life. I'm pretty sure you'll just be amazing, and all this is for not.

The News Has Settled.

So, we're moving forward with this. This is happening, and it's likely that you and I will meet sometime in the near future. I'll do all I can to make sure you're well taken care of until then. I have to say, the news of you didn't shock me like similar news in the past has. I'm not sure I was in full belief that it would all go through, but I'm pretty sure now, and I'm looking forward to our life. I think it will be great – certainly the greatest experiences you'll ever know are yet to come – I look forward to being a part of them, and in some cases, creating them. My love for you has already begun, and this comes from a man that doesn't have the greatest command of his own Love. I do know that you will have it, and in spades. So little is known about you now, I don't want to get ahead of myself. I'm going to learn a bit more tomorrow about how and where to begin giving to you. I know once I get started, it will never end, the giving.